TRACKS
Blue Memories
In turquoise, aqua
blue, I'm free -- swimming in a crystal sea.
It is a
replenishment -- cold, refreshing, innocent.
Splashing in a
sparkling pool, the stinging of my eyes is cruel
Yet underwater I
can see long past my eternity.
I closed my eyes
to a blood red light.
I lay in sand and
dreamt of night,
the summer sun,
the cocoa scent
and the waters'
refreshment.
Splashing in the
mist-filled skies,
the stinging of my
salt-filled eyes;
my days of youth
on Miami Beach
are too far away to
reach.
But when I breathe
the cobalt skies, when I gaze in sapphire eyes
and the jade
aquamarine turns to royal or blue-green.
Cerulean waters,
phthalo deep are the memories I keep.
Hidden in the
midnight blues are the secret underlying clues.
I love blue -- I
miss the Austin rain
I love blue -- and
the sweet champagne
I love blue -- and
a cigarette
I love blue -- in
the fresh ocean air
And now I have
released the pain -- bleating in the pouring rain.
The doors' flung
open to a dazzling light; the shock erupted from inside.
Splashing in a
sparkling pool, the stinging of my eyes is cruel
Yet underwater I
can see long past my eternity.
I love blue --
Oh--for the jade of life's lies
I love blue --
Oh--for the summer skies
I love blue --
Oh--for the dark abyss
I love blue --
Oh--for the magical first kiss
I love blue--
memories.
The Blue Butterfly
[for Henri
Matisse]
She heard an echo.
She understood in her soul
and from all the
lives she'd lived before...
Intuition must be
trusted. Blind faith cannot tell
when the mysteries
are found at the bottom of the well.
Risks and faith in
the smouldering fires
and the burning of
his deep desires.
The Genie of the
lamp's
full of demons and
the dance.
Singing Harmony in
Red.
His passionate
view of joy they said
crossed the Green
Line, o wild fauve;
paint the red room
and orange grove.
The blue of that
butterfly and Cezanne
made you more of a
spiritual man.
Blue as a sulphur
flame filled with Mediterranean light.
Such a blue, it
pierced his heart.
He knew he had to
buy that cherished butterfly.
The painting spoke
in its own clear voice.
She knew right
then that she had no choice
(but to) breathe
in the harmony.
She made the
greatest sacrifice
to decide and not
think twice.
Cross the blue
line, o wild beast,
break the mold and
paint a feast.
Deeper and Darker
I stand before my canvas,
the colours sing to me.
I await the wild
attack, when I can set them free.
I prayed the joy
of life would see its way to me.
Deeper and darker
I paint the scene
till the light no
longer shines through me.
I don't like it
when my heaviness gets the best of me.
Will I rise above
the negativity?
I fought with
desperation, breaking up the planes
setting fire to my
weaknesses; let the wild beast take the reigns.
I prayed the joy
of life would see its way to free me.
My heart never
makes a smart move
never feels the
fright
till it's too late
in the night
and the urges hurt
so bad.
Till I'd fallen
deeper than I ever had.
[Spoken/sung:]
Moving slowly
along in the mute agony of despair
deep in the
midnight hues
with the deepest
of the midnight blues
I'd fallen,
couldn't find the door
but now I'm ready,
can't wait anymore. I can't wait. Can't wait anymore.
I love colour like
a lover, an incandescent jewel
I am dazzled by
the light it makes, reflecting in the pool.
I prayed the joy
of life would see its way to free me.
I hover at the
edge, values filling me.
Soaring in my art,
to paint more freely.
I prayed for the
courage to risk it all.
Forever Now
Freedom-- Freedom-- Freedom--
Freedom is my longing; released from the prison of my mind.
It taught me a new way of seeing - like no mere coincidence;
and my cloudy fears are just intrusions....
I'm just a motherless child - a painter of song
but don't hold me captive - don't do me wrong.
You'll never paralyze me.
I'm not bound by the present - I'll never mourn (the past).
Heaven's where future's borne (forever now---).
I'd taken for
granted the rising sun
and that the next
day will surely come,
expected, relied
on the day to begin...
but never stood
back to take it all in.
Where does it come from - this wild, burning clarity?
Lost on horizons, the end is too far to see...
and the world sparkles; and worlds in a window
open on a new day; and the hazy air sings
from somewhere in time; I can hear Vincent say,
"The best way to know God is to love many things." [repeat]
The mysteries of the palette entice me;
and there's always something new to set free.
I hear the music
of a distant key
and sing what I'm
told that is destined to be.
Wind in the Trees
All my life, been tossed like a leaf - a tree bent down from the
force of the wind--- hmmm---
Yet I forced my way through battering waves - running through a
terrible maze,
climbing high on hands and knees - in a setting of many-colored
trees.
And through the trees forced a wind... and on that wind, the voices sang
like the passionate strokes of a painting
came a whispered story of my gifts
- of my mission, my purpose
...and all the words I would ever speak, and all the music I would
ever write.
Listen for that sense of wind filtering through the trees.
On that wave of wind are all the answers.
You'll connect with nature's rhythm, purifying in the breeze
and learn to draw on sympathetic sojourners on the silver, tree-lined
highway
on the silver, tree-lined highway.
Wind in the Trees is like a spirit and the essence of God speaks to
me.
I must listen.
And sometimes the Master of my higher self allows me to stumble and
fall
and closes my ears, filtering pain and seals my eyes to the terrible
strain... sparing but a hint of light.
And we move on our journey to the end.
Visionary dreams speak through mystic imagery
like rows of shadowy trees, in black and white,
on a gray and rainy night, cloudy and pale like a magical dream --
like a watercolour dream---
And we all know the secret, secretly - and when the truth is
unveiled,
all the war will vanish from the earth...
and we'll stand
tall like the trees.
My Guardian Saint
It's looking
stormy outside now.
I'm caught between
a dream and reality.
Once my calling
helped me cope
and then its
distance took away, took away my hope.
But like the genie
from the lamp,
I know that once I
did believe
a guardian angel
watches me.
I doubt but still
I am naive.
The genie's gone
and guards no more.
The saints have
fought my inner war.
and the spirits
may not win
but can't prevail
if I give in.
It's getting
harder to believe.
I'm caught between
my dreams and practicality.
Once I had such
nerves of steel,
always able to
express how I feel.
I might never unify
all the sides of who I am.
I might never find
my way through the roads of yesterday.
There are sign
posts, (clues) on the way
if I stay on the
path and seldom stray.
But my intuition's
failed me.
My perception's
like a cloudy haze.
Imagination's run astray.
Will I make it
through these days?
With the grace of
God, my guardian saint
is borne in me
time and time and time and time again.
And these angels
come to me - perfect, what I seek to be,
so I can know in
this life creative possibility.
They won't let me
compromise; there's so much to realize.
Got no bargain to
resist, and no chains upon my wrists.
It's looking
cloudy outside now.
I'm caught between
two worlds and I can't go home.
There's no reason
to look back in time.
I've come a long
way and what's mine is mine.
My Infant Joy, My Infant Sin
I have died a
hundred deaths in you.
I've lived five
deaths, ten times two.
I've left a trail
of paint and pain.
Still I find I
must remain.
and I tremble...to
explode
and I tremble...to
explode
You have tied my
hands behind my back.
The sinners trick
me and attack.
For the joy of
life can't seize me
and the devils
tease me.
But then...
I cannot only see
myself
but I can now
glimpse beyond
a hint of
greatness flowering
far past the
glowing wand.
It hits me all at
once - to know.
I see the universe
(in me) - and grow.
I wake up the next
morning
and everything
seems forgotten.
The scene is so
breathtaking,
I want to grasp
the burdened air.
But the perilous
path was pre-planned.
It's not a path of
ease -
toiling through
the wind and sand.
It's got me
crawling on my knees.
A fire against a
pale blue sky,
I want peace, but
you deny me.
You deny that I am
free
and my infant joy
deceives me.
She's in a Trance
To come...
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